fallen angel

I see all these people happy
Living a life so perfect
Why I do not have it the right?
What have I done to heaven?

What evil have I done?
in order to be banished from paradise
I try to run away these shadows
Which gradually fuddled my soul

What have I done
Order for the doors close?
What am I guilty
for having been deprived of my wings?

What can I do
So that finally I can get the right
that all of mortals have
And do not see the value

What have I done so bad
Order for even the mortals
condemn me to hell

What is the harm
Which caused my loss?
Why this damnation?
What is the fault committed?

What is this act?
Which condemns me
In a life of tears and suffering
Where only the trouble invades my heart

What can I do to find redemption?
And finally know peace
Am I not right to love
am I condemned to such eternity?

The answer is neither in heaven
Neither in hell
Will I ever be allowed to have a shoulder
On which rest so that at last the tears stop
A fallen angel is not entitled to have a second chance?